Pause for thought.
This year has been eventful… It started off badly with a sudden toxification of what I’d thought was a promising start to a new relationship. Turns out we were not a good match at *all* and I’m so glad I didn’t linger in that particular room for too long.
In addition to that, my parents decided to sell their house – my childhood home since I was 9 years old, and THEN decided to separate. These things haven’t happened yet, so it’s ongoing, lurking in the dark recesses of my consciousness. To be continued etc. One person in my life has been struggling with anxiety and a secret ‘problem’ which he doesn’t feel he can reveal to anyone, so I feel powerless to help.
My beloved cat Minty died, aged 21.
I have had the wonderful experience of a friendship blossoming into a relationship,which hasn’t happened to me before This makes me HAPPY. He is wonderful… *kind*, patient, funny, loving, sexy, intelligent, self-aware… he has some issues but is working through them, and I’m so proud of him, I’m lucky to have him in my life and feel a quietening of many of my worries. The future seems brighter…
Work has been steady… I love my job and the potential it has to be incredibly fulfilling and exciting. I work with amazing, inspiring people, and have the opportunity to shape the image of the organisation… This is brilliant and rare, and I intend to take full advantage of it to help the company grow, to work with other really cool organisations, and to satisfy some of my own professional passions.
I have TRAVELLED! My trip to Sri Lanka, Bali, Lombok and the Gili Islands was unforgettable in many ways, but primarily was a reminder that I am an independent person whose feet were not meant to stay still for long. I am capable of enjoying travelling alone. This is a big deal…
I have also been dealing with some pretty massive medical diagnoses: histamine intolerance (HIT), Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) and, the mother of all my symptoms, Ehler’s Danlos Syndrome type 3… This has kicked off an emotional journey of discovery, realising that my lifetime of symptoms really does have one cause, and learning about it, how to manage it etc… It’s still a massive unknown and I have no idea what will happen to my body, but at least I can give it a name. My joints feel as though they are deteriorating quickly, but I’m doing what I can to slow this down and reduce the impact it has on my life. At the moment I’m lucky to be able to say I have a normal life – a full time job, a social life… many people with EDS can’t say that.
Now it’s time to focus on some other things… my emotional and psychological well-being for a start. Things take their toll, but my mental health has taken a back seat for an extremely long time and probably needs a little bit of attention.